~Elegants

はい、もう許してくれないの?　ほっといてよ！

言い訳：そのDAの存在ってのをすっかり忘れたんだろうな。
あと、パスワードも忘れてきたんだよね。ビーケ　アホー (笑 )

はい、この前の入力から今までたくさんの作品が作られましたよ～(^o^)　いつか入力されるよ、是非。

えぇ？なんで私の言っていること信じられないの？「是非」って言ったじゃん！疑うな！な！！

[trans:]

Sub: Sorry for not writing in a VERY long time.
Body:
Right, so wont you forgive me already? LEAVE ME ALONE!

excuse: I totally forgot that this DA existed!
also, I forgot my password. Be Careful //*biike aho*// (laugh)

Soo, a lot of works have been created since my last entry (^o^) They'll be submitted someday, absolutely.

Ehh? Why don't you believe what I say? I said "absolutely"! Don't doubt me! DON'T!!

やっぱり私は天才だ。
完
／泣き笑いのジェ鹿より

omg sorry for not updating in centuries!
i have to admit, i completely forgot about deviant art!
so.. quite a lot has changed since the last time i journaled.
even though i am still 19 years old, i feel like i'm 20... maybe older. i have totally kicked my old self's ass and i'm a new me!
it's still me, but it's a new me.
i'm better than THAT me!
my roomates that were my friends last year,... i have decided that i no longer want to be as close friends with them any longer. i have changed, and soem things that make TOTAL sense to me, i just can't get them to understand! and they're so easy! if you don't like something, change! if you're sad, CHANGE! if you want something, GO GET IT! but they'd rather sit and complain, be sad, and do nothing.
or be really bossy, and piss everyone off becuase they think they're the only people who matter, and have authority over others (no joke, T-san SAID that!)
the friends i hold closest ot my heart i have either never met, or never met in person, or haven't seen in ages. B-chan, M-chan, N-chan (TEAM JAPANESE), Kuri-chan, and M-baby (who i will meet someday!)
i love everyone, but in this life, i don't want to be around some for my sake, for their sake.
ON A HAPPY NOTE!
I GOT ACCEPTED TO STUDY ABROAD IN JAPAN!!! i'm leaving for Chiba March 22, 2005! that's just about 4 months from now!
XDD
i'm excited, and scared. but i know i'm ready at last!
*takes flag and marches*
i have finally taken charge, and i'm advancing at full speed to my future!
M-baby ni, here i come!
Nihon ni, here i come!
mirai ni, here i come!
XD
tanoshikatta ne?

school has once again started... it's fun.
i foudn out that my ancient egypt/greece class is taught by a guy who knows little about the ancient world and more about the middle ages... so.. this is going ot be fun, an easy 4.0 though.

i'm excited about my chinese history class! it's something i my major FINALLY. my stupid college doesn't have hardly anythign for me!
i want to go to MODE GAKUEN NOW
except i am not confident of my japanese skills yet. ut i know by the end of this eyar i'll be really good at japanese, hopefully i can improve even faster like in one semester and study abroad like, in the spring or summer.
either way, i am going to japan within a year.

and i have to add that knowing miyavi exhists in the world makes life so... wonderful.

even if i never meet him in my entire life (which would be really sad) just knowing that there is someone out there who is like... that... who writes just great things.... makes me so pleased and so much more happy to greet a new day.
it would be a great thing to have the honor of thanking him in person for sending a message that would get me to realize what i should be doing with my life: going for my goals, taking risks, and making changes for the better whenever i wish it.
even if i was never meant to actually meet him, i think that it was the plan of the universe for me to come in contact with his messages cause i am so thankful for what they have done for me.
and it's so funny, but,... i just look at pictures and see that wow... he's a dork like me and my friends. he does this thing with his nose that my friends and i do... we're like "OMG HE'S A BUTT LIKE US!" (inside joke) but seriously, he'd totally fit in with my group of friends and me.
.......
:sqeeeeeze:
ok fun-time
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:B
>_>
time to go to beeeeddddddddddd
oyasuuumiiiiiii naaaaasaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
mata ashita aishiteru ne!
^o^/~~~~~
-_-zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

*bowing really low*
one of my last entries i talked about a best friend of mine. i didn't mean to hurt anyone's feelings or make anyone think something along the lines that i didn't like this person. since... well.. i mean i said right in the journal that she is one of my best friends.
i just have to remind those who are reading my journal that i am naturally pretty blunt and brutally truthful. so i just say things sometimes, that even though they are true to the best of MY knowledge, the may not be entirely true to someone else's knowledge, and i should learn to soften what i say more so i don't confuse or anger people.
i usually am pretty good at that, like when i e-mail people i don't really know like webmasters and stuff, but... yeah i can be a dumbass sometimes.
so i'm really sorry if i have offended anyone.
about this friend of mine which i mentioned earler: i totally love her (as a sister) and respect her and appreciate that she tells me things about her life, because many people in my life have not bothered to give me their time or their stories, and that's what i really like learning about other people is their stories. it's like being able to really know and see the person. like when you walk past someone and you see their face and their body and stuff.. but you don't know who they are, not even their name. you don't really see the person then, you might as well be blind, because part of realyl seeing the person you walk by is knowing their name, their life, their triumphs and failures, their families... all that stuff. and if anyone appreciates seeing things, it's me. so please do not discontinue your speeches - long or short, ranting or storytelling, sad or happy - cause it's all part of exhisitng in this world and enjoying life to it's fullest.
i love you all
::GLOMP::
>_> ahem
good evening
-the elegant deer-lady (if you know my name, and you know japanese, this makes sense)

i love miyavi
anyway...
finding a job is not easy at all anymore!!
i really have to say that our economy.. nol... the world's economy has been failing lately.
i don't know the exact numbers, but being in the lower lower lower middle class it seems like inflation is on the rise again.. i know that last year japan was at 6% and rising.. now it's probably like 7 or 8% there, and it's probably like.. 3% here.. i dunno, maybe even more. it's getting bad. not just because of gas prices (cause that's a whole 'nother matter) but also jsut like.. the price of simple things at a grocery store! chicken has gone way up in price... which is so odd to me...
chicken is so yummy...
but i need to find a job very badly.. how am i going to pay off college loans in 3 from now if i don't start earning stuff?
off the subject: i totally love miyavi, i hope he never stops screaming, EVER!!! he is SO talented!!!
and i want to meet him SOOO bad, he seems like the kind of person i would really enjoy being long-time friends with (he is so gorgeous also, so... of course i would be glad if it went up from there.. but...) i realize that he may not like me, and who knows maybe i wontl ike him.. and i know that... i have found someone i want to meet badly jsut like the other thousands of girls who think the same thing... oh and you can't forget boys.. the gay or bi boys.. (cough: oimeotoko!) anyway, even though i know it'll be really hard and people are going to tell me crap like "you're obsessed" and "it'll never happen" and stuff, i still have to try. give it my best.
so
i plan to start my search when i go to japan as an exchange student in 2005-2006. (i can't wait !!)
hopefully by then i will be almost fluent in japanese! i'm pretty close to that now... (i could understand the entire movie "oresama" without subtitles (actually, i was unable to find them T_T) but like i said, i could understand everything!! it was a great movie. miyavi is so talented!!!)
**yawwwwwwwwwwwwwn**
and now it's time to sing a lullabye...
"Sonna toki kimi ga gussuri nemureru yo ni
omajinai" <~girls, be ambitious (always puts me to sleep ^__~ go figure (if you understand the words))
oyasumi na-sa-iiiiiii (33 sheep...)